there is something heavier than lead weighing down my heart lead is the color of this day the color of once bright eyes that sparkled and danced with life lead is the color of the shadow I see in the weary reflection staring back at me the color of being older than my years there [...]

Of my flesh they were not born but to my soul they have been knit born and nursed of another womb, another breast they were not welcomed, they were not wanted, they were not loved cast aside like debris, “she clutters my life…” kept as a means for release, “he reminds me of him…” again [...]

I pause at the doorway watching the rise and fall of your chest a moment of peace as you sleep… I see these hands so strong and powerful I remember when they fit so tiny in mine; soft and loving I remember the pictures they drew and cards they wrote the flowers they carried to [...]

I think about you all the time and about the men and women you’ve become I think about the things I tried to teach you and remember all the lessons you taught me I think about the adventures we had and remember all the times of laughter I think about the grief we shared and [...]